Friday just passed! It's a good day though i din do well for singing again. haha. sometimes i wonder did i really not do well or is their expectation getting higher and higher?

But anyways, would like to congrats ziling on joining the big family and will be soon starting her journey to become a vocal instructor *clap* and congrats myself for be appointed the leader for the performers' club. i HOPE to bring them to another level..to be the elite of the school :D Kelly nearly cried when she know ziling would be leaving the group..lolx! den pretend pretend say contact lens make her eyes very dry *laugh* wat an old excuse! not original enough!! haha :X

I'm more thankful now.

I think after i decided i wanna do music/entertainment.. I've become more thankful towards alot of things. I used to take things for granted. But after the whole thing, i realise... alot of things doesnt come easy.. I am very grateful for people who supported me all these time, becuz the support din come easy for me.. alot of people have doubts in what i wanna do and where my interest lies. People who helped me along the way.. remember, if you helped me before... i am very grateful for you. be it.. even if u lent me $2..not the mention those who helped me big time financially..i might not be capable of returning it to u now.. but trust me, the time will come..i havent forgotten about it at all. and i am very grateful for your help.

The courage to pursue what you love doesnt come easy when there's too many people not supportive of it even ur own frens and family...there are other obstacles along the way that make things even more difficult to be done. there are alot of selfish people out there..who doesnt like to share... and MUSIC is meant to be shared. i love sharing my passion... i wake up and my eyes shine at the mention of singing/music. Only by sharing, den do u learn. the more u share..the more u gain. i am desperate to share it. i can go on and on and on if we're talking about the music/entertainment industry..about singing.

Being the regina everyone knows... I AM STUBBORN. i just dun listen to anyone. Cuz to me, once i've decided on something and think that it's the best for me..i dun think there's a need to listen to others in case i start being fickle minded about what i want den end up..i've got nothing. But so far, excluding the music people with rich experience.. there's only 2 non-music person who know how to talk to me in a way i'll actually listen. Simple and direct. that's all i need. dun tell me all the grandmother story..ur moral behind the story..the pro and cons. but the time u finish ur story, i'll be asleep. ZzZZzzzz. and loving singing doesnt mean i wanna be a singer!! stupid mindset people have. i wanna be a vocal instructor la! i am already a singer ma..i sing, therefore i am a singer! haha! taught by alas :P but he always tells me that very seriously.

I'm really glad ziling move up a level.. hopefully, i'll be joining her next year..i hope :D

I've found myself, Have you?
I may be poor.. my health might not be good.. things are not going well. but i am happy cuz i know what i want..i've found myself...have you? or are you just doing for the sake of doing? going to work every morning and there's nothing u can look forward in life. i cant describe the feelling of looking forward to eveerything that is coming my way..i dun know what it is. but as long as i follow my path...what comes will still be something i love..

time to sleep...woot! GCMA!!!! ziling wanted to go..she could have let me know earlier so we could go down together.

PS. thank Low ping ping for her camera! :P

those miserable days
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