Today is the finals. Though I'm not in it.. I went down to give my support to them. I think we became closer than before. When I din get into the finals, most of them were worried on how I was going to react... Instructor too. I am thankful for them. But it din affect me a lot because I saw it coming already.. And I'm not a competitive person.. I was before! LOL. Always wanna win.. I've changed a lot..

I joined the PC few months later den them... It's always nice to have a group of people who shares the same passion. It's a funny feeling when I saw them singing on the stage.. Nope. Not the jealous or envy type of feeling but rather.. Touched. Ha. cuz I've seen the effort and hard work.. cuz I've seen their improvement.. cuz we've been through the few months together. cuz we've been through the naggings together... Through this process, we learn and we grow, more united than before.

The only setback now is my drop of standard..Maybe it's just me.. When I improve..I wanna improve even more and stress comes in.. I always have high expectations of myself...I keep expecting more out of myself..It drives me crazy at times...its killing me...

I realized....I really love singing... Yea..I love singing doesn't mean I can sing well... but I'm learning... still learning...

those miserable days
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