boring day.. few days time it's gonna be sarah celebration... dont really feel like going but i guess i've no choice or else she will murder me.

i seek a chance badly to leave.. everyday i wanna leave to somewhere where no one knows me. somehow i know my current situation isn't wat i want. i haven't been happy for a long long time. and i mean a long loooooooong time. why i say that? because thinking back now.. ever since when i was much more younger.... i dont remember happy days. Sometimes happiness comes and you think they stay but to wake up seeing ur illusion vanish into thin air. Happiness are always short-lived. i dont ask for being the richest person on earth... i dont ask for being loved by millions and thousand of people... i dont ask for beauty cuz beauty is only on the surface and it doesnt reflect what you are. sometimes a request can be that simple. i just ask to be happy. I would wanna pack my bags and leave in search for what i think is happiness. if the chance comes... i would really leave everything behind..many things was once meaninful and now not anymore. If one day, no one is able to find me... guess i'll be gone by then. It might be a short while..maybe weeks.. or months... or even years.. or maybe never coming back... people tell me nothing beats the comfort of your own home and your own country in the company of your friends or commonly known as the friends you love. but sooner or later i will come to love no one but myself.. but for now.. i would choose career over friends and friends over lover..well, normally it still gonna depend whether friends are worth it. packing my bags and leave at this very moment is the only thing i want now. i haven't wanna be here for as long as i've lived. or maybe just staying at a place isn't wat i want..... i am just not happy. Money doesnt make me happy..this i know now.....

those miserable days
3:20 PM